我是什么？

我有个名字，可我并不是我的名字。在某个程度上我的名字代表了我，可它并不是我的一切和所有。我的名字只是我的代号。一个方便别人称呼我的代号。

我有个形象，可我并不是我的形象。我的形象会影响别人看我的眼光，可它并不是真正的我。我的形象只是我带给别人的印象。一个虚无缥缈的假象。

我有个职业，可我并不是我的职业。我今天可能是个教师，可我可以辞职，可以转去做一个工程师，可以自己出来创业，做一个老板。我的职业只是我谋生的方法。

我会沉迷，沉迷于很多东西。有时，我会是个书迷；有时，却又会沉迷网中；有时，也会忘我与电游中；也曾经通宵追过电视剧。我已了解，这是我在逃避现实，当我在沉迷时，我正陶醉于我自己的世外桃源。忘我于我的乌托邦。可现实是逃避不了的，我终究还是要回来面对。所以，沉迷的我不是我。

我会迷惘，不知所措，那是因为我不认识我自己，不了解自己。我到底是谁？我是什么?


读张德芬的＂遇见未知的自己＂有感而发。

A glimpse into the attitude of SESB

Dr Daniel M. Kammen, an energy researcher claimed that Sabah’s palm oil industry produces enough waste to generate up to 700MW of electricity based on the 2008 palm oil production statistics and conservative growth estimates in the recent forum on energy options for Sabah organised by Green Surf.

Present in the same forum was one Abdul Nasir Abdul Wahid who represented Sabah Electricity Sdn Bhd (SESB), who, instead of listening to the claim made by Dr Daniel M. Kammen and at least appear to be interested into what this energy researcher has to say. The good representative from SESB insisted that the biomass approach to generate power was not viable to generate 300MW of electricity needed in the state’s east coast.

From this reported attitude of Abdul Nasir Abdul Wahid in the star online, it gave me a glimpse of the attitude of SESB towards Sabah electricity crisis. It seems that SESB is hellbent to go ahead with their coal fired plant, despite the opposition from the people. It is ironic that the SESB is so dismissive of renewable energy from palm waste as there is actually a United Nation Development Program (UNDP) in Malaysia developing Biomass Power Generation and Co-generation in the Palm Oil Mills.

The mere existence of the UNDP had itself lends credit to the claims made by Dr Daniel M. Kammen of the potential of Palm waste in renewable energy for Sabah.

It buggers my mind that how and why would SESB adopt the attitude of completely overlooking researches done in both private institution and in local universities, namely UM and USM on the huge benefit and potentials of palm waste for renewable energy generation. One such research that the Malaysian Palm Oil Board is also currently undertaking and the report will be readied in a month time as reported by the Plantation, Industries and Commodities Minister Tan Sri Bernard Dompok via Bernama.

Sometimes the stubbornness of SESB in pushing the coal fired plant made me wonder if there were unspoken vested interest hidden in their endeavor. It would be extremely hypocritical for Sabah to support the Earth Hour come Saturday night (27th March, 2010), when our very own Electricity Company is pushing for a new coal fired plant.

Justice in Malaysia

Is it still possible to get justice in Malaysia?

Day in and out, from what is published in the news, what we have been served is injustice.

The injustice of the Perak debacle.

The many injustifiable deaths in police custody.

The injustices committed against the many ISA detainees.

The injustice that was just served today: Ex-ISA detainee loses RM2.5mil award, ordered to pay costs

There is also a trend that could be observed. Many cases where justice had been served in the High Court, the reverse will then be done swiftly in the Appellate Court, case in point: the Perak MB case, not only that injustice was done swiftly but quickly as well, in less than 24 hours.

When will we see justice be finally served? Will that day come at all?

After seeing what is unfolding with the Sodomy II and the chest thumping of PERKASA ilks, I shudder to think about the future of Malaysia. The downward spiral trend is clear to all but the blinds. Correction, even the blinds could see that Malaysia is becoming another Zimbabwe, if, we are not already there.

Let's vote out BN and stop the rot.
Let's vote out BN and give Malaysia hope!

1 Malaysia, People first but no referendum for something that affect every citizens

It's ironic how the BN government action and its speech is in direct contradictory. The 1Malaysia slogan is:"1Malaysia, people first, performance now."

Yet, when it comes to something that will affect every single one Malaysians (i.e. the people) like the GST (Goods and Service Tax), "There is no referendum. Parliament is the best place to decide." That's what BN government said.

So, People should come first, but when comes to a new tax that would burden every single people on the street, people have no say, Parliament will decide, where the BN government have the majority, where the BN government can bulldoze the tax through and there is nothing that the people (whom should have come first) can do about it.

Talk about walking the talk...

The Story of Brown Country, Episode 1: No, we have no rats, the rats are all opposition!

There was a serious rat problem in this Brown country. The populace have tried many methods to solve the problem, they tried rat-poison, rat-trap, rat-glue and even had run a RM1 one mouse campaign. All of these didn't work. There are still over-population of rats in their country. So, after much pressure from the people, the government of Brown country finally decided to seek the advice of an international consultant. Of course the consultant didn't come cheap, rumors have it that they have to pay Millions of RM to get this consultant's advice.

Anyway, the consultant came to the Brown country. After looking at the situation Brown country is in, the consultant concluded that the country have two options:
1) To run an image campaign to tell the people that the country didn't really have a rat problem. Everything is fine, there are no overrunning of rats in the country. There are no rats stealing people's food, there are no rats contaminating the water source, no rats biting off people's clothes, all these rats problems are political ploys of the oppositions. In fact, the rat problems are the doing of the oppositions. If the oppositions are all locked up in jail, then the country would no longer have any rats, because all the oppositions are the rats.

Without hearing the second options offered by the consultant, the government of Brown country jumped with joy and jubilation. "That is IT! That is what we would do!!" The PM of the Brown country government said.

So, that is what the government do. They run media campaign on newspaper, TV, and Radio, reporting that the rats are the oppositions. If the oppositions were gotten rid of there will be no rat in the country.

The people believed the government, so for 50 over years, the opposition in Brown country were the rats. Who, in their right mind would want a rat to run their country? So, in these 50 years, there were no hope for the opposition. For there were no one, whom would listen to the opposition. After all, who would listen to what a rat have to say?

Then the people started to realized that the rat problem has become worse, in fact, it's such a big problem that the people do not need to look for a rat to find a rat. The rats were so rampant and bold that they are parading in front of the people! As if to telling the people there are nothing you could do!

The people become enraged, they demanded that the government to do more to show some results in catching the rats.

Being a democratically elected government, the government of the Brown country have no choice but to do something, so they decided to form an Anti-Rat Agency (ARA). A special investigation agency with the power to investigate rats but have no power to prosecute rats. The power of prosecutions lies with the AG, the government explains, "But don't worry, the AG will prosecute based the finding of the investigation of ARA."

The people sigh with relieve, finally there is an institution to deal with rats.

For sometimes, rats are being caught, then the people realized something. All the rats that are caught are all small rats. The big ones always got away scot-free. So the people started asking the government:"Why is the big one always got away?"

The government assuring the people:"NO, that is not true, the ARA is independent, it doesn't matter if the rat is big or small, all will be investigated."

So, the ARA went to work, now they are investigating the big rat. Then the opposition making noises, "Why, is the ARA only investigating the big rats in Opposition? Why is it not investigate the bigger rats in the government?" Ask the opposition.

The government responded: "That is not true! The ARA is investigating all the rats be it big, small, governmental or from opposition!"

But the people sees what happened. They finally realized that the biggest rat in the country is the government! So, the people decided to send the government a big message. The people put more opposition into the parliament. Now, the opposition become stronger, much stronger than the government of the Brown country have ever experienced. The government suddenly realized that they need to do more to show the people that they are serious in tackling the rats problem.

So, the government reform the ARA in to BARC (Brown Anti-Rat Council). BARC will have more power than ARA, but still hold no prosecution power. The government also promised the people that with BARC, rats will have no place to hide.

True to the government's word, BARC was given a free hand to work. But only to target the opposition. BARC have gone further than ARA. BARC have gone to the extend to make rat out of a non-rat in the opposition. BARC in their pursuit of the opposition, oops! correction, rats. An opposition figure died in their office.

Suddenly, BARC is in deep trouble. People are now suspecting that BARC have committed a murder. BARC, together with the police, and the governmental pathologist have come out and desperately trying to tell the people that the man committed suicide. BARC have nothing to do with the man's death. But BARC couldn't afford a reasonable explanation how would a man choose to end his life the day before he was going to marry the love of his life.

Under intense pressure from the people, the government open up a coronal court to investigate the cause of death of the opposition figure in BARC office.

The coronal court session is still in progress, and it's anyone guess what would be the outcome. But the modus operandi of BARC remains the same: "There are no rats but those from the opposition."

For some (read PERKASA and it irks) anything that is universally good for the country is a threat to the Malays.

I read, Ibrahim Ali (PERKASA president) media statement with interest. Particularly on the part about market economy is a threat to the Malays and how the Chinese bogeyman would take over the country (Disclaimer: These are all Ibrahim Ali's word, not mine).

Nevermind about the possibility and the truthfulness of all things claimed by PERKASA and the likes.

Nevermind also that the views expressed is unimaginably narrow and racist in nature.

All that is to it is to suggest something that would move the country (read Malaysia) forward, and you would have the likes of Ibrahim Ali jump up and say, "No! you can't do that because that is a threat to Melayu!"

Let see, opening up the market, that's a no-no, as Ibrahim Ali said it, market economy is a threat to the Malays.

What about globalization? Would we be able to face the onslaught of globalization with the continuation of NEP? That is a non-issue to PERKASA because you wouldn't hear anything constructive from them on how to prepare the country and move the country ahead to face the imminent fierce global competitions.

These people is only interested in free hand-outs, free APs, free highway toll concessions, and free lucrative government contracts.

Anything that is good for the country that would take these free things away from them would be responded with "that is a threat to the Malays!".